Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in LtStorm's LiveJournal:

Sunday, March 22nd, 2009
6:08 pm	So, I still have a Live Journal account. I hadn't really been cognizant of it still existing until today when I decided to poke around my account.   I see the entries I made over half a decade ago, when I was about 15-16.  I see comments replying to them that I never actually read because even then I only checked the journal itself spottily.  I can't remember why I even got this account in the first place, probably because all my friends at the time had them, and I needed an account to see their posts. The few entries I made six years or more ago are an interesting time capsule for what was going on in my life from my viewpoint at the time. So really, what do I have to say?  Since that last post I finished high school, went to college for four years, graduated with a B.S. in chemistry, and am now a graduate student working on a Ph.D at the University of Southern Mississippi.   That's about the shortest summary of my life since then I can think of that doesn't involve bullet points.  I find it funny that if I could ask the me that made that last post in 2003 or so where he thought he'd be in 2009, he'd at best say "Working in the graphic design industry" and at worst say "my grave." It was an interesting path I followed coming out of high school.  I wanted to be an artist, then I considered joining the army for a quick path into college (this was right as the second Gulf War started, which quashed that idea), and then once I was in college I was aimed at going into engineering, and ended up settling in chemistry. And here I am, still in chemistry.  I work in a lab doing research ultimately towards my dissertation, I teach chemistry labs, I take high-level classes that would've made my head spin when I was 16.  How the hell did I end up here? Okay, that's enough introspection.  I don't know who's watching this journal, really, if anyone.  I'm sure this post will strike anyone who is watching as some strange aberration they can't believe.  I think everyone that's on my friends list thinks I dropped off the face of the Earth, and my perception of them is about the same.  So, how are you guys doing, Velvetanoni, Cadet McNally?  You're the only two I see posts from on my Friends Page, so I assume you're the only ones on my list that still make entries semi-regularly.  It's been quite a while, I'm not really still in touch with any of the circle of friends I met you through.  The last I talked to anyone from it was Nightsong/Justn on AIM a few months...hell, maybe a year ago at this point.  I also notice my usericon is Maho from .hack//SIGN.  I find it funny that I recently downloaded that anime just to watch again at random. I'm setting my 'mood' to nostalgic and am horrified I had a little cutesy cat avatar thing to show my mood with each entry.  Hell, I'll fill in the music box too!  Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: Weezer - Pork and Beans (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 5th, 2003
11:24 pm	I should start using this again. Yeah, I should actually start updating this thing again. (Comment on this)
Friday, October 4th, 2002
3:37 pm	Stress, stress, STRESS...And not a drop to drink. Ugh. Such a stressing week. I've either taken shit from or giving shit to nearly everyone I know it seems, for one reason or another, and I suppose staying in a dorm last weekend is one reason I'm stressed since I didn't get to unwind like I normally do. But now, my English teacher seems to be OUT TO GET ME, since she arranged a meeting with my parents. Not only that, but I've found out she caught one of my friends after class a few days and ago and asked him if I was quote; "Crazy"... ... ... ... I have no real comment for this, but she is off her rocker. Now I have the weekend to try to forget about this, and make amends with the friend I've pissed off. Ugh. That and my workload at school has more than TRIPLED...I had to write two essays and start a third this week, had THREE tests in Chemistry, one in Geometry, one in U.S. History, and two in English. Ugh. Considering I didn't do very good at all on any of them, I'm beginning to wonder if I'm anywhere near as intelligent as I think. Ah well. I want to talk to Velv... No reason in particular, just talking to her always seems to make me feel better, even if it's not about the matters at hand...Anyway. I think I'm going to spend this weekend rewatching Trigun, and maybe some of the movies I have. I never really did pay good attention to a few of them. And I still have like, half of Serial Experiment Lain I haven't watched. Yes. Avoiding contact with all but one human (that one being Velv) this weekend sounds good to me. I just need some alone time so I can stop pissing off everyone around me inadvertently. I guess that counts as my like, third real rant in here. Ah well, hopefully I won't have many of these to post. I need to relax. A lot. Ja ne. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Utada Hikaru - Simple & Clean (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 2nd, 2002
9:17 pm	These people like me way too much. Big Nig kfc: hello Big Nig kfc: how ru SS2 LtStorm: Hello. SS2 LtStorm: I'm fine. Big Nig kfc: thats good Big Nig kfc: where are you from SS2 LtStorm: Mississippi SS2 LtStorm: You? Big Nig kfc: mississippi Big Nig kfc: also SS2 LtStorm: What part? Big Nig kfc: lanksville SS2 LtStorm: Never heard of it SS2 LtStorm: What part's it in? Big Nig kfc: in the southern part SS2 LtStorm: Ah SS2 LtStorm: What's it near? Big Nig kfc: near kenstown SS2 LtStorm: Uh-huh Big Nig kfc: its not a very big town Big Nig kfc: mostly rural area SS2 LtStorm: What's the nearest big town to you? Big Nig kfc: i have no idea SS2 LtStorm: Tupelo? Greenwood? Big Nig kfc: all i no is the country Big Nig kfc: do u have any cool pics SS2 LtStorm: No. Big Nig kfc: oic SS2 LtStorm: You live near Tupelo or Greenwood? Big Nig kfc: i dont no Big Nig kfc: faggot SS2 LtStorm: Oh, I'm sorry. SS2 LtStorm: I thought you had a positive I.Q. SS2 LtStorm: My mistake. Big Nig kfc: im a hick what do u expect SS2 LtStorm: Not a lot. But I can say you're the first hick with "Big Nig" in his/her/its name/ Big Nig kfc: yes Big Nig kfc: than you Big Nig kfc: thank Big Nig kfc: * SS2 LtStorm: That wasn't a compliment. Big Nig kfc: `i take it as 1 SS2 LtStorm: Poor, deluded soul. Big Nig kfc: yes i no Big Nig kfc: anythin else excellent come back boy SS2 LtStorm: For me to make another comeback would require you to say something else inherently stupid. Big Nig kfc: did u ever chat w a kid that has the screnn name kalluminotti7 SS2 LtStorm: I might have. Hard to recall. Big Nig kfc: oic SS2 LtStorm: Why do you ask? Big Nig kfc: well im him faggot fuck u SS2 LtStorm: Ah, now I distincitly recall someone defined well as a mindless jackass talking to me. Once again, some random dumbass decides to try to annoy me. (Comment on this)
4:49 pm	Woo, actual update. I always forget what I want to say when it comes to updating this journal, but I do have a few things I remembered this time; I hate Christians that think they must try to convert everyone they know. I've stopped calling myself a Christian since I don't fit it by any of their standards. I still believe in God, I believe Jesus died for our sins on the cross, but I don't believe in organized religion. This works fine for me. Now, my main problem right now is, I have a religous zealot of a teacher in English. She's bashed Muslims, Buddhists, and Hinduists, randomly bashed Asia, and damn near everything not American Christian. She is REALLY starting to get on my ****ing nerves. I'm just going to start making smartass remarks through her classes now. As if I wasn't already. Other than that little problem, my life is going better and better. No more depression or anything of the like, feels good to be happy... Current Mood: devious Current Music: Paint it Black - Rolling Stones (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 27th, 2002
11:01 pm	Stupid people like me. Sadly. kAllUmiNotti7: i like ham do u like ham cuz i like ham kAllUmiNotti7: y did u warn me i dont like 2 b wartned do u like 2b warned cuz i dont like 2 b warned do u cuz i dont do u? kAllUmiNotti7: fuck u nigger kAllUmiNotti7: ooooo big man can warn wanna cookie kAllUmiNotti7: u sissy bitch kAllUmiNotti7: warnin dont mean shit SS2 LtStorm: Neither does what you're saying. kAllUmiNotti7: yea it does SS2 LtStorm: Not really. kAllUmiNotti7: yea really SS2 LtStorm: Talk is cheap. kAllUmiNotti7: so is ur mom kAllUmiNotti7: i can get what i want 4 5 bucks SS2 LtStorm: Yeah, she only buys like, the groceries we HAVE to have. kAllUmiNotti7: and me SS2 LtStorm: Bargain Bin sale, huh? kAllUmiNotti7: she sukz so bad i charge her kAllUmiNotti7: yep SS2 LtStorm: You just insulted yourself, you realize. SS2 LtStorm: How old are you? kAllUmiNotti7: 19 kAllUmiNotti7: how old r u SS2 LtStorm: Heh, no really. SS2 LtStorm: I'm 16. SS2 LtStorm: Now how old are you really? SS2 LtStorm: 13? 14? kAllUmiNotti7: 19 SS2 LtStorm: An immature 15 year old? kAllUmiNotti7: no an immature 19 yr old SS2 LtStorm: Ah, at least you agree. kAllUmiNotti7: and u wanna bring it 1336 market street williamsport pa is the place 2 bring it bitch SS2 LtStorm: Ah, I remember you. SS2 LtStorm: I don't live within 700 miles of you, fucktard. kAllUmiNotti7: i never talked 2 u b4 SS2 LtStorm: Yes you have. kAllUmiNotti7: screw u fuck stick SS2 LtStorm: Remember the chat? I think you may have been the one that went outside thinking I was there. SS2 LtStorm: Sorry, guys aren't my type. kAllUmiNotti7: yea they r dont lie SS2 LtStorm: Sorry to dissappoint you. SS2 LtStorm: I'm sure you'll find a nice prison convict someday, though. kAllUmiNotti7: hopefully kAllUmiNotti7: who went out side lookin 4 u SS2 LtStorm: Some dumbass in that room. kAllUmiNotti7: i bet they did kAllUmiNotti7: piss gums SS2 LtStorm: I'm pretty sure they were stupid enough to. kAllUmiNotti7: not really' SS2 LtStorm: They acted a lot like you, so I'm perfectly sure they were. kAllUmiNotti7: r u some kind of war hero wannabe SS2 LtStorm: Why do you say that? SS2 LtStorm: I'm sorry, did I use words that are too big for you? SS2 LtStorm: shud i tawk lik dis??? kAllUmiNotti7: ur name ur icon SS2 LtStorm: You surprise me by actually knowing what "Lt" stands for. kAllUmiNotti7: yea my dad and grandfather were in the service for years SS2 LtStorm: Ah, which service? kAllUmiNotti7: so i no the rankings SS2 LtStorm: Now if you only knew how to type. kAllUmiNotti7: navy and militaryu kAllUmiNotti7: mayt b can teach me how 2 type sometime SS2 LtStorm: I'm afraid you're beyond help. kAllUmiNotti7: im a fast learner kAllUmiNotti7: teach me SS2 LtStorm: I somehow don't believe you. kAllUmiNotti7: well that sucks kAllUmiNotti7: i was looking foreward 2 your service SS2 LtStorm: I already told you, guys aren't my type. kAllUmiNotti7: dont lie 2 ur self denile is a big part of depression due 2 u not being able 2 get a boyfriend SS2 LtStorm: I already have a girlfriend, so that might be a slight problem. SS2 LtStorm: But even if I was looking, I'm afraid you aren't my type either. kAllUmiNotti7: its a cover up kAllUmiNotti7: i wouldnt want u kAllUmiNotti7: ur gay kAllUmiNotti7: i like girls SS2 LtStorm: I prefer "jovial," myself. kAllUmiNotti7: no u prefer "homosexual" SS2 LtStorm: Why would I prefer an icorrect term? SS2 LtStorm: Do you even know what "jovial" means? kAllUmiNotti7: happy jolly full of energy kAllUmiNotti7: that is the way ur mom feels after i pound 1 2 her SS2 LtStorm: Apparently you aren't pounding hard enough if she's still fully of energy. SS2 LtStorm: Tsk. Are you good at any thing? kAllUmiNotti7: yea SS2 LtStorm: Blowing spit bubbles doesn't count. kAllUmiNotti7: giving ur mom an orgasm SS2 LtStorm: You just said she still had plenty of energy afterwards, so apparently you stink at it. kAllUmiNotti7: i think u r the retarded 1 here SS2 LtStorm: Yet I'm the one with legible grammar. kAllUmiNotti7: u dont have 2 b formal on the internet professor fag SS2 LtStorm: I'm not being formal. I'm being intelligent. SS2 LtStorm: Intelligent. It means I'm using a lick of common sense. You know, that thing you don't understand. kAllUmiNotti7: o that kAllUmiNotti7: now i get it SS2 LtStorm: I somehow fail to believe you. kAllUmiNotti7: thanx doctor dick whipped SS2 LtStorm: I can't say I've ever been dick whipped. You'll have to explain. kAllUmiNotti7: well its when ur gay partners slapped u across the face w his dick u should no this it happens 2 u every night, by ur dad 2 SS2 LtStorm: You seem to know a little bit too much about what goes on in my bedroom. kAllUmiNotti7: its posted all over sites ur name come up ion a girls nude site w a link 2 ss fag strom gay pleasure botique SS2 LtStorm: It's "Boutique" SS2 LtStorm: And we won't go into what sort of sites you'd have to be looking at to see that sort of stuff. SS2 LtStorm: I'm afraid I must leave you to your own devices while I go take a shower. Mind you, this conversation was MORE randon than the last one. There's a funny story as to how he found me, though. A story for some other time. Anyway, things are going pretty good, I actually have good reason to live on now, and Warcraft III and Neverwinter Nights are cool, I've actually been inspired to write for like, the first time in six months, etc, etc. Disorder Rating Paranoid: High Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Moderate Antisocial: High Borderline: Low Histrionic: High Narcissistic: Very High Avoidant: Very High Dependent: Very High Obsessive-Compulsive: High -- Click Here To Take The Test -- I'm going sane. Last time I got all Highs and or Very High. This is a nice devlopment, since it at least means I don't have surging tendencies to try to end it all. Yes, I was that fucked up. Current Mood: mischievous Current Music: Nickleback - Breathe (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 17th, 2002
11:47 pm	I hate, yet love, stupid people. They're so amusing; grungegirlmm16: dammit why are you always online? SS2 LtStorm: Because this is a dedicated Cable line and computer. SS2 LtStorm: I'm not at my computer all the time. grungegirlmm16: then why would you stay online grungegirlmm16: that's stupid SS2 LtStorm: Because I have no reason to log off since it's a dedicated Cable line. SS2 LtStorm: That and I quite often have downloads running whether I'm here or not. grungegirlmm16: anyway...why were you talking shit about me with cutie? SS2 LtStorm: To talk shit about you would require me to know who you are first. grungegirlmm16: well you were grungegirlmm16: i happend to know for a fact SS2 LtStorm: And how do you know that for a fact. grungegirlmm16: b/c i know grungegirlmm16: i don't need to name names SS2 LtStorm: There's a first. grungegirlmm16: oh whatever SS2 LtStorm: Assumedly you would be Meghan. grungegirlmm16: i don't really care what some internet geek who probably doesn't have any friends grungegirlmm16: says SS2 LtStorm: Then why did you bring it up? grungegirlmm16: b/c you need to keep your mouth shut SS2 LtStorm: And why should I? SS2 LtStorm: Is there something you can do about it? grungegirlmm16: you don't know me...so you don't know what your talking about SS2 LtStorm: And neither do you. grungegirlmm16: i don't talk shit about you SS2 LtStorm: And I haven't talked shit about you. SS2 LtStorm: Your point being? grungegirlmm16: stop playing games grungegirlmm16: i know you have SS2 LtStorm: Quote me/. grungegirlmm16: someone told me what you said....don't act like your innocent SS2 LtStorm: Then tell me what I said. SS2 LtStorm: My memory is a bit foggy. grungegirlmm16: shut the fuck up grungegirlmm16: i can't tell you what you said SS2 LtStorm: Then how do you know I was talking shit about you? SS2 LtStorm: You don't. grungegirlmm16: yes i do SS2 LtStorm: And for that matter, the only thing I have said involving you was mentioning to Cutie about you getting pissed off because I told you I didn't care to pass on that chain letter you sent me. grungegirlmm16: someone told me and i trust them SS2 LtStorm: Did they tell you what I said? grungegirlmm16: you got an additude SS2 LtStorm: It's "attitude." grungegirlmm16: yep...i don't know word for word SS2 LtStorm: Did they exactly say "SS2 LtStorm was talking shit about you." ? grungegirlmm16: typo asshole grungegirlmm16: yep SS2 LtStorm: Yes, you are a Typo Asshole. grungegirlmm16: why do you think you're better than everyone? grungegirlmm16: fuck you grungegirlmm16: i have a life SS2 LtStorm: No thanks. SS2 LtStorm: Why do you think I'm talking shit about you behind your back? grungegirlmm16: unlike you SS2 LtStorm: And how do you know I don't have a life? grungegirlmm16: stupid ass SS2 LtStorm: Do you know me? I didn't think so. SS2 LtStorm: Now if your childish little insults actually meant something to me, I'd be offended, but unluckily for you, you're going to have to do better than that. grungegirlmm16: stupid masturbating internet geek who has to fine g/f on the internet b/c no one else wants your ass SS2 LtStorm: I'm not sure, but I don't think it'd be a good thing if I had people wanting my ass. Previous message was not received by grungegirlmm16 because of error: User grungegirlmm16 is not available. Let us make note I have no idea who the **** this person IS. I think this comes from something said in an AIM chat with a friend of mine, one of her friends was being a total bitch, so she was talking to everyone about it, and then this person--assumedly the friend--somehow found out, and decided to try to jump me about it. In retrospect, I wish I'd of known what the whole arguement was about. I would've been MUCH more sarcastic. Other than Up With Stupid People, my birthday is in a few days. So, the trip to Memphis this weekend was partially for me to pick up what I wanted for it. Among other things I got are; Neverwinter Nights Warcraft III Project A-ko DVD Cowboy Bebop Graphic Novel 1 Cowboy Bebop Graphic Novel 2 Spike Spiegal Action figure The Hitchiker Guide to the Galaxy Complete Diablo book Well, okay, Warcraft III technically isn't mine, but I didn't bother telling my little bro his computer is too crappy to run it. So it's PRACTICALLY mine. Other than that, I got everything I wanted and much much more--considering NWN and THGttG were the only things I actually wanted. Oh well. BTW, love gets to be a really confusing emotion, yet it's unmistakable... Talking to Bianca on the phone felt really odd...Or maybe that was just because both of us were paranoid about really talking since her friend that was over at the time could've picked up one of the other phones in her house at any given point... Oh well. I still love Bianca... And it's surprisingly embarassing to me to say that for some reason... Current Mood: loved Current Music: Tangerine Dream - Oriental Haze (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 10th, 2002
10:27 am	Such a pain... After my last girlfriend dumped me, I pratically swore I wouldn't ever be in another long distance relationship...Well, love doesn't take 'no' for an answer, apparently, I'm trying to hold myself back from giving in as long as I can, and I think the girl I'm saying this towards is too... I'm not going to say who she is, everyone that needs to know will know in due time... Outside of my shattered love life, Red Faction owns... And so does Iced Earth... My birthday is coming up soon, so I'm hoping to pick up a few things I've been wanting for it. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Akino Arai - Tsuki no Ie (Comment on this)
Monday, July 22nd, 2002
5:47 pm	Random update. Okay, so it's been nearly a month since I last updated, not much has happened anyway. But; I've been looking into a webserver and domain a friend of mine is getting. The server is VERY cheap, and very nice for the money, it allows subdomains, so Nightsong has been nice enough to offer me one at the low, low price of covering $4 of the cost per month. Heh. Well, that's good news, because Tripod is starting to piss me off to no end. So right now I'm learning JavaScript so I can employ it into the new site I'm working on. The new site should be located at http://www.eots.fantasyfinale.com when it goes up. Which SHOULD be sometime late this evening or tomorrow. Hopefully. Outside of the website, I've been putzing around the same games as usual, Tribes 2, Diablo II, etc. And hoping I'll eventually have enough money for Neverwinter Nights and Warcraft III. As for my personal life; Same as usual. You know the drill. Cold, lonely, depressive, etc. ;-p Current Mood: determined Current Music: Mason Williams - Classical Gas (Comment on this)
5:46 pm	Random update. Okay, so it's been nearly a month since I last updated, not much has happened anyway. But; I've been looking into a webserver and domain a friend of mine is getting. The server is VERY cheap, and very nice for the money, it allows subdomains, so Nightsong has been nice enough to offer me one at the low, low price of covering $4 of the cost per month. Heh. Well, that's good news, because Tripod is starting to piss me off to no end. So right now I'm learning JavaScript so I can employ it into the new site I'm working on. The new site should be located at http://www.eots.fantasyfinale.com when it goes up. Which SHOULD be sometime late this evening or tomorrow. Hopefully. Outside of the website, I've been putzing around the same games as usual, Tribes 2, Diablo II, etc. And hoping I'll eventually have enough money for Neverwinter Nights and Warcraft III. As for my personal life; Same as usual. You know the drill. Cold, lonely, depressive, etc. ;-p (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 4th, 2002
12:26 am	Just a boring update. Not much has happened, so I don't have that much to report. As if anything I report is of any interest at any rate. But, I guess I can say that I have been sleeping REALLY ****ed up hours lately, like from 5pm-10pm tonight. Outside of that, I guess there's games. I've gone back and am playing Total Annihilation from the beginning again, hoping to be able to beat all the missions this time. I've got my Diablo II character to Act III and am working my way through. And I still can't get past the middle missions for the Meccs on Giants: Citizen Kabuto. As far as my personal projects go; I'm working on my webcomic now, trying to get it ready so I can start putting it up on my site. I'm working on fixing up the first chapter of my fic so I can make it public, and I've been idley doodling around with other random stuff. As for my mood; It's cold, lonely, and depressive as usual. Still just an angst-fest of a life. I guess that's all I have to say for now. I'll update again if anything comes to mind. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Bare Naked Ladies - Alcohol (Comment on this)
Monday, July 1st, 2002
4:28 am	The first update...And a big one at that. Okay. So I got this a loooooooong time ago, like, right before my computer bit the big one, among other things that had me sticking to the basic things I did online like talking to people over IM and posting on a message board or two. Well, it's a long story, and it should've been cataloged in this, were I able to access it at the time. Anyway, guess I'll give a short explanation; Early March- My computer contracted a virus and was struck by lightning within a week. The OS was damaged, and the mobo was too. PAIN IN THE ASS #1. After that, I started trying to contact ECS Elitegroup about how to get my mobo fixed. Comes to find out, they seem to be based in Japan and not have anything but a distribution office on the U.S. So after that, it took me awhile, but luckily a computer show came along to a nearby town, and I managed to pick up a nice Asus P4S333 board. And a spiffy new 2.3Ghz P4 768 Processor. So, I'm one happy camper now. Mind you, it was two months before that happened, so, I got this computer back at the beginning of June. Oh well. The Ryoku Akuma is back to reigning supreme. Mid May- My girlfriend broke up with me. The only explanation I ever got for it was that she was "unhappy with me," which still beats the hell out of me as to what it means. All I've ever gathered was what her friends told me that she met some other guy and got a crush on him and decided to undo a year in three days. So, aside from a blow to my trust in people in general, I'm back to my cold, depressive, lonely existence. But atleast I do get some comfort from being able to keep myself occupied doing SOMEthing on my new computer now, I guess.... Early June- Summer School. Yes, I failed Algebra II and had to retake it in summer school. I hate Algebra. The class is stupidly pointless unless you intend on doing something that SPECIFICALLY requires it, that coupled with the fact I was stuck in it with twenty-two idiots, and it being first period and me not being sentient at that time, I managed to fail it. Sooooooo, that's what's caused the holdup. Now, onto current things going on; Hold on...They'll come to me...Soon...Wait...My life has been boring... Well, I finished the Prologue of my Total Annihilation fanfic, and everyone that's read it so far has liked it, even through the blatant flaws and problems that ended up in it from my crappy writing. Outside of that, I finished watching Trigun not too long ago. Very cool series. And am currently trying to see Love Hina and Bubblegum Crisis. I guess I need to actually beat the several different games I'm working on right now, including Diablo II, Final Fantasy X, and Planescape: Torment. I can't really think of anything else that I have to say right now, except that I'm single and looking again, so I guess I'll leave you with this and try to update regularly from now on. Current Mood: cold Current Music: Metallica- The Unforgiven (Comment on this)